Saturday, August 23, 2008

I am such a Rob

"Bust most of all it has prevented me from sticking with a relationship, because if you stick with a relationship, and your life becomes dependent on that person's life, and then they die, as they are bound to do, unless there are exceptional circumstances, eg. , they are a character from a science fiction novel... well, you're up the creek without a paddle, aren't you? It's OK if I die first, I guess, but having to die before someone else dies isn't a necessity that cheers me up much: how do I know when she's going to die? Could be run over by a bus tomorrow, as the saying goes, which means I have to throw myself under a bus today. When I saw Janet Lydon's face at the crematorium... how can you be that brave? Now what does she do? To me, it makes more sense to hop from woman to woman until you're too old to do it anymore, and then you live alone and die alone and what's so terrible about that, when you look at the alternatives?"

If you have never seen/read High Fidelty I suggest you do. One of the best books ever written. It was hard for me not to draw similarities between Rob and me. He flits from woman to woman (as explained above) and I had never heard that rationalization for it before. Outside my own head, anyway.

Being with someone forever means having to say goodbye at one point, and I don't want to do that. If I ever found someone I'd be willing to spend fifty years with, how painful would it be to suddenly lose them after so long? No way. I'm with Rob.

Well, I was with Rob until he asked his girlfriend to marry him. We were on the same page until then. Stupid men.

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